Thank God for Insomnia

Well I couldn't sleep tonight so my dumb ass watched Paranormal Activity and I am scared shitless!!!  So I thought why not blog!  Things have gone a little crazy since the last time I blogged.  I hung out with the family this past weekend and had a blast!  Pineapple upside down cake...a little to sweet and way too disgusting looking.  Stayed the night at the Beals, thank goodness I couldn't have driven home.  About 3:00 that morning I could not sleep.  I had the worst heartburn I have EVER had.  And I have heartburn for the past 10 years, always controlled with medicine.  It hurt so bad that I couldn't really sleep, but somehow I finally did fall asleep.  Along with the heartburn was an intense pain on my right side, this pain mimics a gallbladder attack...well my gallbladder was taken out 5 years ago.  This pain has been off and on for the past 4 months...haven't gone to the doctor, well because I don't want to be a baby.  So all day Sunday I was dying.  Such bad heartburn, nausea, pain, burning down my abdomen.  The pain continued Monday and by Monday afternoon I was doubled over in my office.  Couldn't go to the doctor because..well I didn't have the time.  So on Tuesday I went to Midland for work.  About 2 1/2 hours from Brownwood, the pain got so bad that I had to pull over.  I got so freaking sick.  Made it to Midland and did my thing.  By the time it was all over with, I was dying again...so I called around Midland for a walk in clinic that took my insurance...no such luck.  So I drove to Brownwood and went straight to the clinic becuase a. it takes forever to get an appointment with my doctor and b. I couldn't do this another night.  When I got to the clinic they weighed me of course and I weighed less than when I stopped the HCG, woohoo.  They thought I might have a kidney stone and wanted me to pee in a cup...if I would have known that I would not have peed about 5 minutes before I went back.  So I see the PA, tell her everything that is going on and had my first lidocaine cocktail...ooooohhhhh that SUCKS!!  After you take the shot of the cocktail, everything is numb!  It felt like I was having a hard time swallowing and going to choke!  But it worked for the heartburn, not the pain.  The PA gave me some Zofran and told me it's time to have another scope (only my 5) and get my esophagus stretched (only my 2nd).  If you have never had a dysphagia stretch...you are lying on a table a little groggy with some numbing stuff sprayed in your mouth only to luck up to see them shoving a garden hose down you throat!  It is horrible.  Got a referral but they couldn't do it because they are not my PCP.  Called my PCP and got a call back today.  I have to go see her and have a full workup done before I go to the specialist.  Seriously, I have had GERD, dysphagia and GERD since I was little.  I know the routine.  Apparently she needs some more money.  So I am trying to mentally prepare myself for barium studies, swallow studies, CT scans, a scope and yes another garden hose down my throat so that it can tickle my stomach!  So  I decided today that I was not going to wait another 6 weeks to do the HCG again, I started it again today.  I am hoping that the no preservative eating will help, plus it will help me lose weight so that when I do see the specialist, he can't say it's because  your fat!!!  I can tell him to shove it up his ass, I have lost almost 50 lbs in almost a year, and this shit is worse!  I did the load day today and ate a shitload of food, I am miserable.  Zofran is not my friend either, it makes the nausea worse...I need phenegran, it works everytime.  I'll see my dr on Tuesday and prepare my budget to include the costly adventure I am fixing to endure.  I'll have to have one procedure done each month.  But hell I should reach my out of pocket in no time. I know my part of the tests are around $1000 out of pocket and then I'll have to pay about $500 for the scope and throat stretching....gawd that sounds dirty!  So HCG, be good to me :)  Okay Zofran is kicking in and I am going to try to sleep...in the living room because ain't no way in hell I am going to my room!!!  Goodnight/good morning!!!