What a DAY!!

Oh wow, what a day!!!  I was in a bad mood this morning, and everthing was made worse when mom told me that she and Werdna were going to watch David in a tournament on Saturday. WTF...THEY setup a family gathering for Saturday.  They had me send out all the emails and now they will be in and out! Oh well what the hell.  That means more me time with lil Joseph :)  I get to work and found out that some foster parents have set their own adoption, for MONDAY!  I have to have paperwork signed and filed with the court within 10 days, so I had to bust my ass and get the paperwork together, my first packet was done in 2 hours.  Then I got it filed.  Mom and I have had to share a car since Christmas because my lil lovely broke down and it was going to cost a lot to have it fixed.  Well she figured out that I could take out a loan against my life insurance policy and then just pay the interest rate annually.  So they told me they would help me start looking.  Everytime I have said anything about this, she blows me off.  So every freaking night, I go through Autotrader.com to see if I can find a car.  I finally found one and I think if I got the windows tinted it would be perfect.  I have already talked to the dealer and everything.  So much for their help!!!  Well when I went to get the money so I could get the car today, mom overestimated the amount by $300, which means that the car I have picked out is now a no go.  She doesn't understand what a pain in the ass it is having to share a car with someone, and I have paid more than $40 this month for gas for her car!!  So that made things even worse.  I think the whole thing that pissed me off is that Mom and them are going to possibly blow off Saturday and Mom's excuse was "i haven't been to a game yet".  Oh okay, she has been to two tournaments, I haven't gotten to watch David play in one, but I am not going to blow off a prior committment to go.  Around 4:45 while I am busting my ass at work, I got a text that she was going to David's basketball game.  Holy shit, I have been to two TWO of my nephews basketball games.  When I tell her about the loan and that the check will be mailed to her house, she tells me well you need to call them and ask them what their bottom line is.  WTF I have already talked to these people three days now.  Then I said well I just need someone to go with me to help negotiate.  My dad was supposed to go...Mom suggests that I take one of Werdna's friends because she CAN get you a deal.  I am over it at this point.  So I get off work around 5:30 and am all the sudden a raving hysterical lunatic.  The ONLY reason I have stayed in this God forsaken town was so that I could be here for David and Shelby's activities.  Well I was able to go to two basketball games this year and no baseball tournaments.  Even though they drive me CRAZY, I love my family and I love having family all around.  But lately it seems that everywhere I turn is douchebag, the one who didn't feel like I was good enough for him...so he dates married women who are going through divorces and seem to be kind of looney.  The thing that sucks is that I have had two people in my life that I allowed to make me feel worthless and yes I am aware that I allow this, but why does he have to be everywhere I go...he sits behind us at the youth fair with his new girlfriend, I turn around in dollar general and he is right behind me...for fuck's sake go the hell away!  But no matter what I always go back to that point because I am a masochist in some ways, he is Mr. Big,  just not as good looking!!!  So the stress limit is through the roof.  Which is not good when you are on HCG, the stress hormone's mess with your HCG and how it works with your metabolism.  So I am sure my weight will be up tomorrow.  The same ole foods are getting very boring.  Fish again with tomatoes, which is really good, just not four nights a week. So to top it off, I am worried about the HcG process (it is vital), no car, this weekend, working like a freaking maniac and the jet engine sounds still coming from my stomach.  So I am ended my day with a couple of episodes of sex and the city, my relaxation guru!!  One of these day's I will get my shit together and find my happily now, not sure about ever after.  I think the 500 calories a day is finally starting to wear on me, I am just downright a moody bitch who has constant reminders of those I don't want to remember.  Oh and I have lost 14 lbs as of today, no a big loss day, but what the hell it's a loss.  And again, I was too lazy to do the measurements.  You know I want to be thin so I can dress cute, so people will see me, not the weight, to be happy whether it is just me or me and someone else and to be able to tell everyone "i'm pregnant" or I am adopting a child.  Hopefully these things are in sight more than I realize.  I feel completely comfortable with you guys reading this because you are the people who know me best and have always been there to support me...alright, enough of this self-pitying bullshit!!  Okay, here is a quote that just came on as I was watching Sex and the City "Somewhere out there, Mr. Big was all alone again.  The universe may not always play fair, but at least it's got a hell of a sense of  humor".   Well it is almost 10 which means it is time to hit the hay so I can get my 8 hours of sleep in.  Have a great Friday and finish it off with drinks for me, please, let me drink vicariously through you :)  Love to you all, Shauna

Once a Katie, always a Katie!