Day 10 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

Melanie: not sure where I would be today without her...during the toughest time in my life, she was there with me, holding me together, digging a ditch for the body we needed to bury (just kidding, but we thought about it) and she is still there...after every bad date, new life event, boy after boy!

Days 8 and 9

Day 8 - A picture that  makes you laugh

Day 9 - A picture of the person you do the silliest things with



Day 6 and 7

Day 6 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Julia Roberts: she has gorgeous babies and seems to be so down to earth

Day 7: A picture of your most treasured item

This thing keeps me on track and in touch with everyone I love.

And I am defiently proud of my new car!!



Day 5

A picture of your favorite memory :)  I have a few!!

Me, Werdna, Shane and PawPaw...I miss him everyday!!

Me and MawMaw Christmas 2010 LOVE her!!

1st Dallas Cowboy Game with the besties

The day David Martin was born

Me and Mel my 22nd birthday :)



Sweet Jessica

Okay Sweetness, you are stronger than what you think...you have to fight, fight, fight!!  You're sweet little Katie Bug and all of your family and friends need you.  I keep saying prayers for you and will continue to do so.  Your other two little partners in crime are praying fast and furiously and need you, they will continue to fight and provide strenght too!  Love ya suga britches!!!

Day 4

A picture of something that you wish you could forget:

Unfortnately, this is an ongoing battle for me, I HATE scales!!

Day 3

A picture of the cast of your favorite show

The ladies from Sex and the City!

Day 2

On Day 2 of the 30 Day Photo Challenge post a picture of you and the person you are closest too

Me and My seeseter, Werdna, we've always taken care of each other!

20 reasons why you're still single....hmmmm

1.  You always expect him to make the first move

Men know that they’re supposed to do the running, and they hate it. Being born male does not gift them with unassailable self-confidence. If you want a date, go and chat him up. He’ll be too delighted to reject you.

2. You think that eye contact is “making a move.” No, it isn’t
“Go and chat him up,” we said. Not: “stand there glancing at him every 20 minutes.” Eye contact, no matter how flirtatious you think it is, will not get you off the singles’ bench unless you accompany it with “hello,” at the very least.

3. You play hard to get
If you want a man to be interested in you, be interested in him. It works, because all human beings are egomaniacs at heart. Treating ‘em mean only makes ‘em go and find someone else.

4. You don’t get it when you’re being asked out
If a handsome stranger asks, “are you alright for a drink?”, he is trying to ask you out. Don’t just nod, blush, and run away. If you find him attractive, accept his offer and strike up a conversation.

5. You’re still waiting for love at first sight
Lust at first sight happens all the time, but it ain’t love until you’ve shared a bathroom. Don’t wait around for that thunderbolt of first-glance love, because you’ll be waiting – and single – for a very long time indeed.

6. You’re too busy
All work and no play makes Jane a dull singleton. It may be tricky to find time for socialising and relationships, but your happiness (and health) will benefit if you strike a balance. Life is too short not to.

7. You stay in because you’ve got a zit
A zit that no man would ever notice, by the way. He’s too busy looking at your breasts or, if he was brought up very well, your eyes. Stop allowing minor skin mess-ups to dictate your social life.

8. You wear too much make-up
The natural look is much more appealing to men than a trowelling of slap. Too much make-up makes you look desperate, and that’s never a good look when you’re trying to impress.

9. You keep mentioning your ex
Perhaps you were with them for years and they play a walk-on part in all your anecdotes, but you must break the ex-namecheck habit if you’re to impress a potential lover. Even a passing mention of your ex suggests that you haven’t moved on.

10. You keep interrupting
What women see as conversation, men often see as interruption. If you’re trying to impress a guy, bite your tongue. Indulge him. Let him finish his train of thought. You can teach him to converse properly once you know him better.

11. You talk about yourself too much
Prompt him to talk about himself. Make him feel like the most interesting man you’ve ever met. The more interesting you find him, the more interesting he’ll find you.

12. You moan about stuff that men couldn’t give a stuff about
You’ve had the day from hell in the office, where you hate your boss and your boss hates you. Moan about it to your mates in the pub after work, not to the guy you’ve met for a first date. If you do, you’ll end the date just as single as you started it.

13. You don’t want to break your diet
A tasty dessert shared with your date could seal the deal on your evening, and it’s unlikely to make a difference to your waistline unless you have a date every night this week. Don’t be a party pooper. You can make it up with a quick run tomorrow… or some other form of vigorous exercise.

14. You always expect him to pay
If he asks to split the bill, it doesn’t mean he’s not interested. Maybe he’s short of funds, or thinks it’s only fair that you go halves (in which case, he’s absolutely correct). If you throw a wobbler, you’re a high-street version of a gold-digger.

15. You ring him too soon after the first date
Calling a man on the way home from your first date will make you seem needy and clingy, and you will find yourself back at singlehood square one. A text message to say “I had a great evening” is plenty to keep the ball rolling.

16. You don’t ring at all after the first date
Refusing to ring him at all is just playing hard to get. Once 24 hours have passed since the start of your date, ring him. If you get a brush-off, you can move on to the next guy.

17. You don’t return calls
Whoever told you to wait for five days (or whatever random number of days) before returning a phone call is an idiot. No man wants a stalker, but letting him know you’re interested is the way to win his heart.

18. You waste time with men you don’t fancy
Fear of being single often drives you to accept dates – and more dates – with men you don’t really fancy. Trouble is, while you’re wasting precious time with Mr OK-I-Suppose, you could be out finding Mr Right.

19. You waste time with toxic men
These are the men who pull you one minute and break your heart the next, leaving you feeling more single than ever. There’s the serial online dating addict who never takes his profile down; the self-esteem leech who can’t stop criticising; the rebounder who uses you as a cushion after his break-up… they’re out there in their millions. Avoid.

20. You’re too picky
If you have a very narrow idea of your “ideal man”, you may never find someone who lives up to your fantasy. Here’s a revolutionary idea: try a man who’s completely different from your ideal. You may end up surprised – and a lot less single.

30 Day Photo Challenge

I thought this was really neat so I am going to do the Faith's Place 30 day Photo Challenge...

Day 1: A photo of yourself and 15 facts...

1.  I love my Friends and Family

2.  I am horrified of clowns

3.  Gnomes freak me out

4.  I have recently discovered a love for fish tacos

5.  I have crazy eyes...

6.  Depending on how I feel or my mood my eyes are brown, hazel or green

7.  I'm a bling whore

8.  I'm addicted to high price beauty products

9.  I'm a horrible domestic person

10.  I'm a workaholic

11.  I still have my christmas lights up, seriously

12.  I am pretty sure I have a ghost in my house, he likes to visit when I have taken vicodin :)

13.  My self confidence was low, but thanks to a very good friend...it's improving

14.  I am VERY, VERY good at pretending everyting is okay

15.  I have a wish book from when I was little that I kept of things that I wanted when I grow up...I still add to the book :)  A girl can always wish

Here are the upcoming challenges....



Day 2 - A picture of you and the person you are closest to

Day 3 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

Day 4 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.

Day 5 - A picture of your favorite memory.

Day 6 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.

Day 7 - A picture of your most treasured item.

Day 8 - A picture that makes you laugh.

Day 9 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the silliest things with.

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.

Day 12 - A picture of something you love.

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.

Day 21 - A picture of your favorite night .

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.

Day 25 - A picture of your favorite day.

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss



Sickness...get your ass out of my house!

This week has been horrible!!!!  I went to the doctor on Tuesday.  Yeah, I have Bronchitis...I get the blue ribbon!!!  I get bronchitis every year, but not as bad as this.  Fever, exhaustion, truckstop trannie voice and hacking cough.  Got three shots in the ass which was a complete joy!  Apparently this has maybe been going on for a while which explains the chest pain.  On the positive side, I got some phenegran with codiene...woohoo.  On the positive side, they think maybe a bacteria is causing all digestive issues.  The blood tests were done and should have the results in anytime.  Thank God for the codiene, I have hacked so flipping much that my back and arms are killing me!  Oh the life.  AND just as I suspected I got this from my wonderful sister!  She went to the dr. today and has bronchitis as well.  Let me just say this, DO NOT go to the clinic in Early, TX.  Werdna went there when she first got sick and said she had a sinus infection, her doctor today told her she probably had the flu and it turned into bronchitis.  When I went last week, they told me I needed to go see the stomach specialist without doing a test or anything.  MORONS!!!  I haven't been able to do HCG because I am sick :( But I hadn't gained any weight when I went to the doctor so YAY for that!  I have been eating only soup for three days so I am fairly certain that I won't be gaining any weight this week.  I am going to try to go to work tomorrow if only for a few hours, I am missing out on way too much not being at work!  So this carp needs to leave my body and leave my house!!!

I know it's sick, but it is funny as hell!!!

Thank God for Insomnia

Well I couldn't sleep tonight so my dumb ass watched Paranormal Activity and I am scared shitless!!!  So I thought why not blog!  Things have gone a little crazy since the last time I blogged.  I hung out with the family this past weekend and had a blast!  Pineapple upside down cake...a little to sweet and way too disgusting looking.  Stayed the night at the Beals, thank goodness I couldn't have driven home.  About 3:00 that morning I could not sleep.  I had the worst heartburn I have EVER had.  And I have heartburn for the past 10 years, always controlled with medicine.  It hurt so bad that I couldn't really sleep, but somehow I finally did fall asleep.  Along with the heartburn was an intense pain on my right side, this pain mimics a gallbladder attack...well my gallbladder was taken out 5 years ago.  This pain has been off and on for the past 4 months...haven't gone to the doctor, well because I don't want to be a baby.  So all day Sunday I was dying.  Such bad heartburn, nausea, pain, burning down my abdomen.  The pain continued Monday and by Monday afternoon I was doubled over in my office.  Couldn't go to the doctor because..well I didn't have the time.  So on Tuesday I went to Midland for work.  About 2 1/2 hours from Brownwood, the pain got so bad that I had to pull over.  I got so freaking sick.  Made it to Midland and did my thing.  By the time it was all over with, I was dying again...so I called around Midland for a walk in clinic that took my insurance...no such luck.  So I drove to Brownwood and went straight to the clinic becuase a. it takes forever to get an appointment with my doctor and b. I couldn't do this another night.  When I got to the clinic they weighed me of course and I weighed less than when I stopped the HCG, woohoo.  They thought I might have a kidney stone and wanted me to pee in a cup...if I would have known that I would not have peed about 5 minutes before I went back.  So I see the PA, tell her everything that is going on and had my first lidocaine cocktail...ooooohhhhh that SUCKS!!  After you take the shot of the cocktail, everything is numb!  It felt like I was having a hard time swallowing and going to choke!  But it worked for the heartburn, not the pain.  The PA gave me some Zofran and told me it's time to have another scope (only my 5) and get my esophagus stretched (only my 2nd).  If you have never had a dysphagia stretch...you are lying on a table a little groggy with some numbing stuff sprayed in your mouth only to luck up to see them shoving a garden hose down you throat!  It is horrible.  Got a referral but they couldn't do it because they are not my PCP.  Called my PCP and got a call back today.  I have to go see her and have a full workup done before I go to the specialist.  Seriously, I have had GERD, dysphagia and GERD since I was little.  I know the routine.  Apparently she needs some more money.  So I am trying to mentally prepare myself for barium studies, swallow studies, CT scans, a scope and yes another garden hose down my throat so that it can tickle my stomach!  So  I decided today that I was not going to wait another 6 weeks to do the HCG again, I started it again today.  I am hoping that the no preservative eating will help, plus it will help me lose weight so that when I do see the specialist, he can't say it's because  your fat!!!  I can tell him to shove it up his ass, I have lost almost 50 lbs in almost a year, and this shit is worse!  I did the load day today and ate a shitload of food, I am miserable.  Zofran is not my friend either, it makes the nausea worse...I need phenegran, it works everytime.  I'll see my dr on Tuesday and prepare my budget to include the costly adventure I am fixing to endure.  I'll have to have one procedure done each month.  But hell I should reach my out of pocket in no time. I know my part of the tests are around $1000 out of pocket and then I'll have to pay about $500 for the scope and throat stretching....gawd that sounds dirty!  So HCG, be good to me :)  Okay Zofran is kicking in and I am going to try to sleep...in the living room because ain't no way in hell I am going to my room!!!  Goodnight/good morning!!!

I feel like ASS!!

I did really well on the HCG while I did it! 20 lbs in 20 days and 29.5 inches gone. But the temptation of the weekend settled in. It is unbelievable how much your body changes while on HCG. My body feels completely out of control eating processed foods. Feels like it's foreign!!!! So tomorrow I am starting 10 more days of it then following protocol...and next time I am doing the prescription injections for 40 days!!! I have 3 more rounds left. One lady whose blog has really helped me out, has lost 90 lbs in 4 rounds...amazing!!! So I know I can do it! One of the things I've gained through this whole process is a little bit of self confidence...I still have a ways to go but I'm not just doing this for my weight, it's helping me become myself again...what a great feeling!!!! But I did have a great weekend with some fantastic people :) and this time, I'm following it exactly by the protocol: 8 hours of sleep a day, two liters of water a day and 30 minutes of walking a day. Well u won't get 8 hours of sleep tonight but can start tomorrow night. I ordered a shit load of new clothes in the right size, so I got to keep on trucking!!! That means I get to get rid of the jeans that are 3 sizes to big and either fall down or show my ass when I bend over :) so here's hoping for a great week!!
Good night my friends!!