What a DAY!!

Oh wow, what a day!!!  I was in a bad mood this morning, and everthing was made worse when mom told me that she and Werdna were going to watch David in a tournament on Saturday. WTF...THEY setup a family gathering for Saturday.  They had me send out all the emails and now they will be in and out! Oh well what the hell.  That means more me time with lil Joseph :)  I get to work and found out that some foster parents have set their own adoption, for MONDAY!  I have to have paperwork signed and filed with the court within 10 days, so I had to bust my ass and get the paperwork together, my first packet was done in 2 hours.  Then I got it filed.  Mom and I have had to share a car since Christmas because my lil lovely broke down and it was going to cost a lot to have it fixed.  Well she figured out that I could take out a loan against my life insurance policy and then just pay the interest rate annually.  So they told me they would help me start looking.  Everytime I have said anything about this, she blows me off.  So every freaking night, I go through Autotrader.com to see if I can find a car.  I finally found one and I think if I got the windows tinted it would be perfect.  I have already talked to the dealer and everything.  So much for their help!!!  Well when I went to get the money so I could get the car today, mom overestimated the amount by $300, which means that the car I have picked out is now a no go.  She doesn't understand what a pain in the ass it is having to share a car with someone, and I have paid more than $40 this month for gas for her car!!  So that made things even worse.  I think the whole thing that pissed me off is that Mom and them are going to possibly blow off Saturday and Mom's excuse was "i haven't been to a game yet".  Oh okay, she has been to two tournaments, I haven't gotten to watch David play in one, but I am not going to blow off a prior committment to go.  Around 4:45 while I am busting my ass at work, I got a text that she was going to David's basketball game.  Holy shit, I have been to two TWO of my nephews basketball games.  When I tell her about the loan and that the check will be mailed to her house, she tells me well you need to call them and ask them what their bottom line is.  WTF I have already talked to these people three days now.  Then I said well I just need someone to go with me to help negotiate.  My dad was supposed to go...Mom suggests that I take one of Werdna's friends because she CAN get you a deal.  I am over it at this point.  So I get off work around 5:30 and am all the sudden a raving hysterical lunatic.  The ONLY reason I have stayed in this God forsaken town was so that I could be here for David and Shelby's activities.  Well I was able to go to two basketball games this year and no baseball tournaments.  Even though they drive me CRAZY, I love my family and I love having family all around.  But lately it seems that everywhere I turn is douchebag, the one who didn't feel like I was good enough for him...so he dates married women who are going through divorces and seem to be kind of looney.  The thing that sucks is that I have had two people in my life that I allowed to make me feel worthless and yes I am aware that I allow this, but why does he have to be everywhere I go...he sits behind us at the youth fair with his new girlfriend, I turn around in dollar general and he is right behind me...for fuck's sake go the hell away!  But no matter what I always go back to that point because I am a masochist in some ways, he is Mr. Big,  just not as good looking!!!  So the stress limit is through the roof.  Which is not good when you are on HCG, the stress hormone's mess with your HCG and how it works with your metabolism.  So I am sure my weight will be up tomorrow.  The same ole foods are getting very boring.  Fish again with tomatoes, which is really good, just not four nights a week. So to top it off, I am worried about the HcG process (it is vital), no car, this weekend, working like a freaking maniac and the jet engine sounds still coming from my stomach.  So I am ended my day with a couple of episodes of sex and the city, my relaxation guru!!  One of these day's I will get my shit together and find my happily now, not sure about ever after.  I think the 500 calories a day is finally starting to wear on me, I am just downright a moody bitch who has constant reminders of those I don't want to remember.  Oh and I have lost 14 lbs as of today, no a big loss day, but what the hell it's a loss.  And again, I was too lazy to do the measurements.  You know I want to be thin so I can dress cute, so people will see me, not the weight, to be happy whether it is just me or me and someone else and to be able to tell everyone "i'm pregnant" or I am adopting a child.  Hopefully these things are in sight more than I realize.  I feel completely comfortable with you guys reading this because you are the people who know me best and have always been there to support me...alright, enough of this self-pitying bullshit!!  Okay, here is a quote that just came on as I was watching Sex and the City "Somewhere out there, Mr. Big was all alone again.  The universe may not always play fair, but at least it's got a hell of a sense of  humor".   Well it is almost 10 which means it is time to hit the hay so I can get my 8 hours of sleep in.  Have a great Friday and finish it off with drinks for me, please, let me drink vicariously through you :)  Love to you all, Shauna

Once a Katie, always a Katie!

Holy Smack!!

Let me assure you that you do not want to be doing HcG when you have a stomach virus.  I continued with the drops but did not follow everything to a T like I have been doing which pisses me off!!  I feel bloated and my stomach has sounded like a freaking jet engine all day long.  On the bright side as of today, I am down 13.8 lbs.  I was too tired to measure today!!  I am a member of a PCOS blog community and found a woman today who is doing the HcG and she has lost 35 lbs since September.  But she is doing the injections and I am doing the drops...which by the way help me feel like I haven't had to give up liquor at all because they taste like a shot of pure alcohol each time I take them.  She also drinks a protien shake in addition to the 500 calories which is not protocol.  It is getting really hard to come up with new ways to cook chicken, beef and fish.  And something has happened that is even crazier!!!  I have been pretty normal with my cycle since August (with the birth control and metformin) but today 4 days early, i started spotting...weird!!!  For the first time in a long time I am going to do what I am supposed to and get 8 hours of sleep tonight...so that means nighty, night time!!

Night y'all!

I love this...

(: benefits of being single :)

There are more ways than ever to find the right person for you. Until then, here are just a few reasons to celebrate your single status.

1) Flirting is encouraged

You don't have to feel guilty about staring at that cutie from the coffee place, or oogling a particular hotie on the street.

2) Your money is your own

If you want to blow a week’s salary in Vegas, it's entirely up to you. There's no one to nag you to put it in the bank for a rainy day.

3) All the covers are yours

No waking up cold. No pulling blankets off of someone else just so you can get a few hours sleep. (And no one snoring all night to interrupt your peaceful shut-eye.)

4) Let your spirits fly!

Having a great day? Your partner can’t come home and dampen your mood. Conversely, you don’t need to cheer up anyone else.

5) You can leave your socks anywhere you want

No one will nag you to pick them up. You also won’t have to pick up socks or underwear that isn’t yours!

6) You get to meet new people

Dating is a fun activity. You get to know new people and learn what makes them tick. You can have conversations about anything and everything - not just about your significant other's day or what your kids did in school. Best of all, in going out on different dates you'll be stretching your comfort zone and discovering new activities you might not have otherwise tried.

7) You don’t answer to anyone

If Sunday is your day to watch the game, hang out at the bookstore, or swing by every rummage sale in town, no one can tell you otherwise. If you want to go to the gym or eat popcorn for dinner? Go ahead!

8) You can devote more time to your career

Singles are sometimes envious when their married coworkers duck out at five to pick up the kids, but being on your own can have distinct advantages at work. You’re more flexible; you can bail out your boss by devoting more time to an important new project and even jump on a last-minute flight to sooth an angry client. This type of availability can make your boss take notice, and hopefully, reward you.

9) Meet your friends whenever you’d like

Married and otherwise attached folks are sometimes not as flexible as their single counterparts when it comes to keeping up with friendships. So when the guys decide to grab a beer and wings at the last minute or the girls plan an after-work get together you can easily join them without worrying about someone else’s schedule.

10) You only have one set of relatives to deal with

While it can be great to have a large family get together with both sides of an extended family, it can also be a headache at times. If you’re someone that prefers a more quiet holiday by just dealing with one goofy family (your own), being single can afford you a calmer celebration.

(: This makes me SmIlE

this makes me smile :))))

1. "You can do whatever you darn well please." --ilanadonna

2. "Shave your legs and the razor is never dull from his face." --kkj199

3. "Not only is your razor not dull, who needs to shave at all now?" --sfgirl

4. "You can leave bra and other unmentionables in view." --kkj199

5. "You can slump around the house in any old thing." --sfgirl

6. "You don't having to think about birth control, calendars or ovulation. Aunt Flo can visit whenever she likes." --glamourgirl

7. "You can go out and flirt as much as your heart desires, without a worry in the world." --ilanadonna

8. "The toilet seat issue -- need I say more?" --kkj199

9. "Free drinks at bars! Men seem to know when you're single and tend to be very generous." --sfgirl

10. "You can have male friends without having to defend yourself and explain that nothing else is going on." --tam1021

11. "You can finally see all the good videos -- the romantic, cheesy films. (Get some ideas girly videos in our Chick Flicks area.)" --ilanadonna

12. "No one grossing out over Tampax wrappers being anywhere in the house." --sfgirl

13. "You don't have to wear G-string panties unless you want to wear them." --kkj199

14. "You can have sexual gratification at any time, not just when the sports games are over." --kkj199

15. "You don't have to deal with anyone's grumpy, moody personalities." --sfgirl

16. "You can get the juice/cheese/toilet paper/videos/CDs/take-out that you want." --tam1021

17. "You can spend as much time as you want with your family and nobody's lip will drag the ground." --cskgirl

18. "There is no one putting you on a tiny pedestal that you can fall off of at any moment, unless you are focusing on your balance all day long." --sfgirl

19. "You don't have to stroke the fragile male ego, and other things." --glamourgirl

20. "No needless exposure to foulness, burping, gas and so on." --lctostig

21. "Never worry if the milk carton had been directly drunken out of." --kkj199

22. "You are free at a party or bar to talk to who you please, and you don't always have to turn to and say 'Hon, let's go over and talk to so and so.'" --sfgirl

23. "You can watch Oprah, Rosie, figure skating, and cooking/decorating shows without having to defend yourself." --glamourgirll

24. "You can buy what you want at the grocery store. So what if you want to have spaghetti four nights in a row?" --sfgirl

25. "You can talk to your girlfriends for hours on the phone without getting dirty, exasperated looks." --glamourgirl

26. "No 'buddies' coming over for 'a couple of beers' then staying and commenting on Pamela Anderson all night (like any of them have a chance)." --kkj199

27. "No more checking with someone to see if 'it's okay' to tell someone yes or no to an invitation. You can accept on the spot." --sfgirl

28. "You don't have to do laundry because he has no clean socks." --tam102

29. "You can fill the fridge with fresh fruit and veggies, bottled water, one-percent milk and applesauce instead of cold cuts, beer and Velveeta." --glamourgirl

30. "No more Cinemax, American Flyers, Steven Seagal or Jackie Chan. You are free to watch Emeril and Ming Tsai three times a day if you want." --cskgirl

31. "You no longer have to reassure him that he does indeed look like Bruce Willis." --cskgirl

32. "You can be happy with who you are, not who he wants you to be." --ud98alh

33. "Your dryer is no longer a fifth dresser drawer." --cskgirl

34. "If you are depressed or mad at the world for a few minutes, you don't have to worry about having your 'outlook on life' analyzed." --cskgirl

35. "You can buy something for yourself (a new dress, CD, shoes, or whatever) without being asked, 'What do you need that for?' " --tam1021

36. "You can eat garlic or onions without a second thought about breath mints." --ud98alh

37. "You don't have to give yourself lame excuses for not devoting time to yourself." --cskgirl

38. "No one is going to get insulted when you spend the day at the beach checking out the lifeguards." -- dorothyt99

39. "You can have eight hours of undisturbed sleep with the covers all to yourself." --glamourgirl

40. "You can go to bed in flannel and plaid rather than Frederick's and Victoria" --ud98alh

41. "The TV Guide crossword puzzle is YOURS, ALL YOURS." --kkj199

42. "If you tidy up your apartment, it will STAY neat until YOU mess it up again!" --glamourgirl

43. "You can spend your paycheck on what you want." --ud98alh

44. "Your friends can sleep over and no sleazy 'Can I join in?' comments are made." --kkj199

45. "You don't have to worry if he will or won't call." --kimberly71

46. "No more arguments about things you can't explain." --ilanadonna

47. "You can have a clean bathroom with the toilet seat where you want it." --ud98alh

48. "Not only are your dinners free when you go out on those first dates, but they take you out to nice places." --lctostig

49. "No snoring!" --ud98alh

50. "The best reason for being single is: Vibrators don't talk back, you can turn them off and on, and they don't stop until they are through serving their purpose." --lctostig

Purpose of this thang...

A few people are aware that I have started the HCG diet.  This blog is set up for them to come and check out progress and what is going one with me!  Of course most of you know that I have been diagnosed with PCOS which effects my fertility.  I really want to have a child of my own and I am bound and determined to do everything I can to make this happen.  The HCG has been shown to produce more eggs during ovulation, produce more follicles and decrease the insulin resistance in the ovaries.  So I started the HCG on January 9, 2011.  So far it hasn't been bad.  I have actually been cooking twice a day and it is all fresh food, nothing processed.  This has actually made me feel good .  Monday sucked ass though.  I ate more than the alotted chicken and had a diet coke!!  But I only gained .8 of a lb.  So as of today, I am down 12.2 lbs and 12.5 inches.  I got back on track today, other than I had a diet drink...and did not drink all my water like I am supposed to, so it's back hard and fast tomorrow.  I will keep daily journal logs and this way you guys can follow my progress, it's really a bit too much to post on facebook.  So I am taking my tired ass to bed!!  Love to you all!!